So this little blog of mine is a whole year old.
I started it so I could sort out my feelings of things happening in my life at the time.
It has seriously been so useful to me.
When hearing of my Dad’s diagnosis, I didn’t know how I felt about anything. Everything was up in the air. I would flit from one emotion to the next. I needed something concrete to set my feelings onto. If I wrote them down they would become truth as I felt it in each moment.
And so ‘indigo_hart’ was born.
By writing and sharing I have frozen in time one of the most significant years of my life.
Everything I felt and thought is here. I can go back and read them anytime, and I often do.
It’s a way of checking how I am progressing on coping with living life and death.
It has also been doubly useful as it has been a way of sharing with all that wanted to know how I am doing without them having to ask me. It keeps people at a safe distance. You don’t need to ask and I don’t need to tell.
I like that I don’t have to say my thoughts out loud and yet everyone around me just knows, they totally get where I am at.
It has kept emotional injuries to a minimum. It has kept me in control.
I think that’s it.
This blog brings order and control into a situation I have no control over.
So it’s been a year. It’s been an incredible, catastrophic, terrifying and daunting year.
But, life’s challenges do not stop here.
Life keeps rolling,
as will this blog.